Getting correct medication frustration?

I was diagnosed with Bi-polar disorder and depression in 2007 when I was 19 years old. I'm not sure if I gradually starting exhibiting symptoms my last year of college since it was the earliest I can remember having symptoms. I never had behavioral problems until I was 19 either. I straighten out after a year and half and decided to go to college. In the town that I go to school in, in the midwest there's really good resources for people with mental health illnesses and concerns. When I first got here I thought that I could handle myself without any medication but after a year and a half I hit rock bottom and after 2 hospitalizations I was referred to the mental health center in town where I began seeing a therapist and psychiatrist. I really liked my therapist but my psychiatrist really frustrated me because she never listened to my symptoms and side effects and from one day to another she would take prescriptions away. It got the point that I broke down and had to be hospitalized for a week because I went 2 weeks without sleeping. I gave up going back to there and started smoking marijuana on a daily basis to self medicate. A year and some months later I really feel like I need to be medicated before my symptoms get worse. On top of everything I've explained to her in the past that I really could not concentrate in class and she said it was my bipolar disorder affecting my concentration but no matter how much dosage of mood stabilizers or antidepressants she gave me, I still wasn't really suffering in class. I just want a low mood stabilizer to balance out my moods a little. I've gotten adderrall from a friend in the past and I was actually able to concentrate in class and get so much homework done and remember what I studied and read but I don't want to use it under does conditions. I'm going to call tomorrow to set up an appointment but Im afraid I might end up with the same doctor who will not no concern about what I'm feeling or experiencing. I've taken a ADD assessment that overwhelming showed that I had ADD and I've seen multiple doctors that have diagnosed me with the depression and bi-polar...is there anything I can do to make them actually listen to me? I just want to live a normal life despite my mental illness.

Why do some people like to try to make a quiet and calm person angry?

I notice this a lot actually. That if you are the sort of person who is quiet and keeps to yourself more people flock to you but only to try to rile you up. It could be that deep down I'm just short tempered and they mean no harm but I notice this a lot. What is so exciting about making a person who is usually quiet and serene lash out? The thing is I really don't want to lash out because I know I will get physical and hurt someone. I know I will so I try so hard to keep my cool and act like I don't care. Do I sound like I should seek anger management? I never get violent but the thoughts are there and I get so angry so easily. I cannot take a teasing joke. There's only three people I allow this from-all female and all related to me. It's like I have this wall and if people try to get cozy with me I feel violated and extremely offended.

Thinking about Moving to Corpus Christi?

The only reason i could think of is hurricane season, but definatly cant think of 10 reasons. I Live here and its a great place to live.

Pressing charges concerning an animal.?

I frantically searched for a month in a half, posting flyers, looking in people's backyards, posting adss on craigslist, and even searched shelters for my missing cat. I than came to a point of contacting a psychic, and it was my first experience. SHe told me she thought she was in victoria,t x. I didn't believe her bc it is 90miles away, but she did the reading for free and so i decided to contact an animal psychic and she verified everythign the other lady said which bought me entirely. She didn't care how much i paid her, so they had no motive to lie or cheat, and one lives in austin and another in houston. I than realized at that point, the weekend after my cat went missing my neighbors had made a trip to corpus christi, tx. Before i didn't make the connection, but i checked it out and to get to corpus christi, you have to pass directly by victoria, tx. I am so mad about this but am trying evertything i can. I am so close to my cat, and when i find her, i was wondering what limits me from pressing charges. The weekend after my cat dissappeared and they went to corpus, the little girl sent me a picture of corpus christi. This verifes they went there, and me getting my cat back varifies what the psychic says. Also, i wrote dates down. Little do they know i know anything about this, but they will know soon

Why do people tend to flock around me when Im PMT'ing? I don't get it?

I swear down when ever Im going through PMT unaware of it at the time but anytime I have PMT that's when everyone flocks around me can the aura radiate confusion and attract people and Im always going through hell during that time, how can people sense that Im going through that? And then prompt themselves to come around me. Ive actually recorded it on the calender the only time people well family and its usually to start confusion but they come around me during PMT why pick that time? and now I definitely know before hand Im going to try and nip it in the but but because my Cycle is irregular its hard to know when it crops up.

Is something wrong with my chicken?

My chicken Butters (hehe). She is a lot slower then a lot of the other chickens. She doesn't have good balance and either she is a runt or is the youngest one of them. She has an arched back and a long neck. She can roost fine but she gets scared of jumping off high roost or high areas. She can fly really good. When I say shes slow when everyone is inside the house and there might be 2 other chickens outside but in another spot she just sits there and does nothing unless I go up to her she comes back to earth. Everyone loves her and she is a really nice chicken she doesn't bother the baby chickens at all. She is pretty to. I'm just really worried that if she goes in the woods on her own instead of staying with the flock she might get eaten or hurt if she goes to far. She's my favorite out of the teens and I've already lost the first 4 chickens who were the adults and now I only have the 2 left out of the adult chickens.

Can you help identify a song about an astronaut?

I remember back in 1993-1994 there was a song that was playing on the radio constantly on a local station in Corpus Christi, Texas. The song was about an astronaut going up into space and looking down on the Earth and then seeing God and having a conversation with him. I’ve searched the internet and lyrics databases over and over and can’t find a lyric sheet for the music, which leads me to believe I’m completely misremembering the song or it was really a Christian/local band that was only aired locally. I remember the song was a guitar and male voice, and was a slower beat song but not country slow, more like Pink Floyd. I remember the lyrics “He saw God” and another lyric was either “He went up into space” or “He went up into the sky”. Let me know if you recognize the song.